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Sofia Jeppsson's avatar

Great read as usual! I know I often post "great read" comments on your blog, but I really feel this one.

Once upon a time, there was talk of maybe slapping "schizo-affective" on me, but for some reason that I can't remember now, it never happened, and I'm left with "maybe somewhere on the schizo-spectrum". I think this was good, because I think it's true that I've had some real mood swings occasionally, like on a pathological level, but I'm also sure that looking at my adult life as a whole (and I'm 47 so that's quite some time now), pathological mood swings have been more an exception than a rule. And even less frequent as I age. But who knows? Maybe if I got that schizo-affective diagnosis in my early twenties, it would have shaped my identity and I would have become that way to a higher extent.

I also remember my mum, at one point, being certain I was autistic after reading articles about it, while my then-psychiatrist was dead certain I wasn't. I was never really evaluated for this. Maybe I would fit an autism diagnosis now, over a quarter of a century later when the diagnosis has widened so much. But I don't see any point, really. I'll be the same person with or without an autism diagnosis. I still don't wanna shit on adults who feel that it's really important to get a diagnosis late in life - you do you - but for me personally, it feels pointless.

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I can't help but consider a gender dysphoria diagnosis and the extreme changes that are created from hormone therapy. Why this feels controversial to bring up here is confusing to me and yet as I write this it does, regardless of how apropos the article is to the topic. It is a diagnosis that defines identity and with regard to medication (or hormones in this case) it's not only a period of time coming off a drug, it is a lifetime of being unable to undo the effects of hormone treatment. This quote, "I am conscious of what can go wrong when people build identities around diagnoses" becomes even more complex and confounding, but seems important to mention.

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